I'm not dead, yet.

My Inspirations...

• You Don't Know You're Beautiful by OneDirection
• Brokenhearted by Karmin
• Beautiful Disaster by Jon McLaughlin
• Gimme Shelter by the Rolling Stones
• Beautiful, and encouraging friends
• The Book Of Mormon

For some reason,

I always surrounded myself with others who didn't always lift me up.

Some degraded me. Some ignored me. Some took me for granted. Some kept me around for convenience.

And all of these, I held onto for dear life.

But, I've recently learned a lot about myself.

I used to make myself invisible, because I didn't want others to notice my short comings. 

I hid behind my weight so that I could keep everyone at an arms length.

I thought that I was ugly, fat, and very frumpy.

Thanks to some amazing and inspiring friends, I am beginning to realize my worth.

I've realized that I am truly not as ugly as I thought I was.

I am beautiful.

I've realized that I am not as fat as I once believed I was.

I am beautiful.

I've realized that while I believed when others told me that I was weak, insecure, and had a lot of issues,

I am beautiful.

I am strong.

And I am worth it.

I am beautiful. I am strong. I am a daughter of God. And He has made me perfect in His eyes.

Thank you to the doubters, the degraders, the unsure, the pessimists, those who never noticed, those who pointed out the flaws, and the unbelievers. For you have taught me to be tough, and to love unconditionally.

Thank you to the knowers, the builders, the assurers, the optimists, those who did notice, those who pointed out my strengths, and the believers. For you have taught me to love myself, and that I am enough. And thank you for never giving up one me-despite my denials.

I have a lot more work ahead of me. But, if I can remind myself everyday that I am made the way He wants me to be made, and that I am beautiful, I can do this.

And so can you.

A word to the wise...

You are enough. You are His child. Lift others up, don't belittle them. We are all beautiful.

And also, I am beautiful. Don't try to tell me any different.